finding the light through the dark..

We are Matthew and Katie Staley. We live in a small town in North Carolina where nothing is going on, and hardly anything ever happens. We both grew up here, and are still stuck here. We both are collecting unemployment, and desperatly searching for jobs in a jobless county. My husband Matthew is in school right now for Phelbotomy (which is a blessing that it is free for him), and I am hoping when he is done, to go to Cosmotology school, which is my passion. We have went through many tough breaks, and rarely CATCH a break. We got married very young, but were determined to prove everybody wrong, we were sooo in love, and we are and are still together. A year and a half later we were suprised to find out that we were pregnant, and were excited afterwards and knew we were going to have a baby, later on we found out that I had misscarried. Though it was heartbreaking we got through it and moved on sometime later, we thought maybe it just wasnt the right time, and God had a plan for the next time. We then only had one income in the household and I was on the move again trying to find a job. I found a job at a daycare and fell in love with the children and wanted one very badly, our house just felt empty. A few months later we were very excited when we again found out I was pregnant this year in February. This time we were mentally prepared, but not totally financially prepared, but our family helped up push through. We were soo thankful to God for blessing us with another pregnancy and had high hopes that a little baby was about to enter our lives..but yet again in April we lost the baby..and this time..it was seriously a difficult time for Matthew and I. I had to have surgery to remove the fetus and had never been put to sleep and was scared. Now the crib, and all the clothes sit in a room, gathering dust, and so did our hearts. For a long time, up until recently we both became very depressed in our faith in God . We were both raised in families who taught us that with God all things are possible, and some how we had forgotten that. We have started to attend church more often and have decided there is nothing we can do by ourselves. We have put our faith in God completly and wholely and hope-someday-that we will be blessed with our miracle, and that He will lead us to a life that is full and abundant, and soon will guide us into the light through the darkness.